Change

I love change. I like to change my living room furniture around, I never use the same toothpaste or shampoo twice, I like the change my hairstyle (no comments necessary from the peanut gallery...we already know I've had lots of hairstyles).
I also like big changes to my life. One day my husband Tim and I decided to buy a house. Not long after that came our daughter Aidyn. Barely two years later we sold our house and moved our family from Colorado to Kansas. Now after two years here in Kansas, I feel like we're both getting the itch for change again. I find now though that even though I'm looking for change, I'm having a hard time making a commitment to anything.
I love my job, I really do. I knew going into it that cooking for a daycare wasn't what I wanted to do for the rest of my life. I took the gig because the hours were good and I got to spend more of my time with Aidyn than not. I had told myself I would stay until Aidyn was in school and I could find something that paid a little more. But, I'm starting to feel like it's time to move on, that there is more for me out there. Since I've been cooking for the kids, I've had so many ideas for a small business I would love to get started. It's a huge change going into business for yourself, but I really think it would be great. So why can't I just take the plunge and do it?
Tim and I enjoy living in Lawrence for the most part. We have family close by for the holidays, and a few friends to do things with. But, we don't own our own home here, there doesn't seem to be the fun things to do that we had in Colorado, and after this past winter, we really want a warmer climate year round. We've talked about hundreds of places we can go. We've researched towns and jobs and the cost of living for lots of places. So why can't we just pick somewhere and go?
I don't think I've ever really had a fear of the unknown, so why now? Am I really afraid of the change or the "consequences" that may come with the change? I don't know, I think I need to sleep on this one.

Try again

So far I'm not very good at this. I've started the same blog a few times now without success of finishing it. I had trouble figuring out how to work Blogger on my blackberry which set me back a few days. Finally today, I got everything worked out and typed and typed while I played with Aidyn in her sandbox. The downside to Blogger on my blackberry as opposed to my computer...my blackberry doesn't automatically save my work like my computer does. I walked away from my phone for a bit, and lost everything I had written earlier. Sigh. Starting over. For as great as technology is, it really stinks at the same time.
So, this is just a "yes i'm here and writing" post. I just haven't actually finished anything worth reading yet. Hmmm, I leave for mini-vacation on Friday. I bet a long plane ride is just what the blog doctor ordered!